100% serious this time around.

I always come back saying I'm really going to do it this time and no more slacking and I never really do it. I lose weight slowly without doing anything to get there. It got me about 15 pounds liter but I'm not at my goal and I won't stop until I get there. I'm SO out of shape. It sickens me just how out of shape I am. I went to run today and could barely do 15 minutes, that is so not okay!! It's disgusting and I WILL change that. Starting this Thursday I'm going to start going to my school to work out in the gym there instead of sitting on my ass doing nothing for two days. (Tuesday and Thursday) I'm going to get back into watching what I eat and portion control. The biggest issue I'm going to have is Starbucks. My moms cousin got her a giftcard for there but since she doesn't drink coffee she gave it to me, and he puts more money on it alot.

With this change of attitude and focus I'm starting at 122.1 which isn't all that bad since my main goal is 115. 110 if I can. Not only will I update this site, I'm going to start writing my weight and food intake down in a journal. Summers coming up and I have to be where I want to be by then. No hopefullys, I will be there.

Oh geeze

What did I do and why do I want more?

I'm sitting in my cousins room, while she just try on on a ton of outfits, and she's complaining about her "chub" which she doesn't have AT ALL! It really pisses me off. It kind of motivates me to work harder to be as small as her one day. Okay, realistically I'll never be as small as she is but I don't want thighs that are the size of both of hers together.

But anyway, sorry about being gone again, but Friday I was working on school stuff, Saturday I spent the day at my cousins new place with my aunt, and then Sunday I drove up to her place again and stayed with her and her roommates Josh and Steve. And it was SO much fun. Josh was teaching me how to play Borderlands. It was fun as hell, I sucked though. Even though I did kill a bunch of stuff by myself. Steve and their friend Matt were joking with Stephanie (my cousin) about how cute it would be if Josh and I dated. It was weird, that was like only the 3rd time I hung out with him too. He's sweet and all but weird. It would be totally awkward since he lives with my cousin. hah.

UGH!

I'm back up to 122. I have no idea how. I know I haven't been eating as good as I could be, but I haven't been doing bad either. Unless I gained muscle. I don't know. Tuesday I helped my cousin move and I went up and down the stairs like 673545 times. UGH. I don't understand.

OMFG! First goal met!!!

As of this morning I am 120.3!!!! I can't believe it. It's amazing. This weekend I've been downing McDonalds large Iced Coffee like it was air. And I had a ten piece chicken nugget yesterday too. I was driving a lot. So I didn't really eat much.

I'm so excited.

I had a huge update post yesterday but I forgot to post it before leaving to pick up my dad. So either tonight or tomorrow I will update again. But I have to get ready for school.